I shall be graduating tomorrow
Wow, I really messed up this 'challenge', huh?
Anyways, these are stuff I didn't post before:
Anyways, these are stuff I didn't post before:
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
There are only 5 days remaining till graduation
And I haven't posted what I should've posted.
I...just am always so tired that I can't write, and when I want to write I can't because I'm in the middle of doing something else. I wrote a vignette or whatever it was but it's not enough.
Nothing ever is enough.
I want to start writing what I've been planning on writing but I have to sleep because I'll be up early tomorrow and I need the rest because it's going to be damn stressful.
Funny how it works, you know? You could spend years on end laboring in classes with only little complaint, stress, or ill health, and now that that's over and all you have to do is practice for at least only 4 hours a day for two weeks and you find that you don't have any strength to overcome that little stretch of time.
Maybe I'm just all out.
I...just am always so tired that I can't write, and when I want to write I can't because I'm in the middle of doing something else. I wrote a vignette or whatever it was but it's not enough.
Nothing ever is enough.
I want to start writing what I've been planning on writing but I have to sleep because I'll be up early tomorrow and I need the rest because it's going to be damn stressful.
Funny how it works, you know? You could spend years on end laboring in classes with only little complaint, stress, or ill health, and now that that's over and all you have to do is practice for at least only 4 hours a day for two weeks and you find that you don't have any strength to overcome that little stretch of time.
Maybe I'm just all out.
I'll get back again
I haven't been posting because I had my exams and I'm currently having an episode.
I will post again if I don't kill myself.
I will post again if I don't kill myself.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Still me
I am stressed and my gut is filled with that awful feeling of dread.
The finals are this week and I haven't done an inch of studying and I don't even know what to study. I also skipped out on my make- up test which means I have to be busy tomorrow too.
I should do my THE homework but I have no idea how to do the last one and I need to compile it all but I need to use a black folder for it and I told her to buy one but she forgot and the stores are all closed and there's a black out. I somehow feel like screaming at somebody and tearing something or beating someone up but I can't bring myself to actually do that; I feel too weak to do something like that.
In fact, the only strength I have left to do is to curl up on my bed and cry.
Right then.
The finals are this week and I haven't done an inch of studying and I don't even know what to study. I also skipped out on my make- up test which means I have to be busy tomorrow too.
I should do my THE homework but I have no idea how to do the last one and I need to compile it all but I need to use a black folder for it and I told her to buy one but she forgot and the stores are all closed and there's a black out. I somehow feel like screaming at somebody and tearing something or beating someone up but I can't bring myself to actually do that; I feel too weak to do something like that.
In fact, the only strength I have left to do is to curl up on my bed and cry.
Right then.
A Countdown to G-Day: Days 38 to 42
There's that feeling of dread again.
Hello. I know I haven't posted in a few days; I didn't know what to write. Rather, I did know what to write but I knew I shouldn't write it. And so here we are.
Last week was my last week of regular school. This week is my last week of high school, period. Tomorrow is my last regular day of high school. I am graduating. This is really happening. Say what now?
It's crazy when I think about it. You'd think I'd be all weepy now, but I'm not. I'm really happy and excited. Maybe a little sad too. As much as I've hated high school, I'll still miss it.
I like the fact that I'm seeing more of me the me as I truly am. I've missed her; haven't seen here in a year. Is it sad that she's back just when I'm about to leave? Very.
But in any case, I'm graduating. (I hope so. I cannot understand some of my requirements. Pshh.)
God help me.
Hello. I know I haven't posted in a few days; I didn't know what to write. Rather, I did know what to write but I knew I shouldn't write it. And so here we are.
Last week was my last week of regular school. This week is my last week of high school, period. Tomorrow is my last regular day of high school. I am graduating. This is really happening. Say what now?
It's crazy when I think about it. You'd think I'd be all weepy now, but I'm not. I'm really happy and excited. Maybe a little sad too. As much as I've hated high school, I'll still miss it.
I like the fact that I'm seeing more of me the me as I truly am. I've missed her; haven't seen here in a year. Is it sad that she's back just when I'm about to leave? Very.
But in any case, I'm graduating. (I hope so. I cannot understand some of my requirements. Pshh.)
God help me.
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